When life gets too hard …

Life over the past month or so has certainly and suddenly changed for us pretty drastically.  If you read my blog at all, you probably know that it pretty much has to do with Erik’s dad getting cancer, and Erik suddenly becoming his main caregiver. It’s been a bit of a rough road as we’ve had tons more on our plates than normal both physically and emotionally and we’ve been dealing with things we’ve never had to deal with before (and didn’t expect to have to deal with for a long time).

I will spare you all the details because I don’t want to complain and vent on this oh-so-public blog. I’ll just say that last night was one of those climax too-much-going-on kind of nights where I just sort of exploded. Ha, Erik and I were both completely worn out, tired, and really crabby and I did my share --and more-- of crying. (I tend to be a bit emotional sometimes, just ask my family members ; )

(I took this picture last summer in NY when Erik was showing me the crazy hills and beautiful scenery all over where he had to pick up trash when he was a trash man there back in the day, haha. I love NY! )

Anyways, as I was thinking about everything this morning while typing away at work, I decided it’d be a good idea to remind myself of what I’m thankful for and the wonderful things I really do have. And since I haven’t had a very “serious” post in awhile, here goes …

*please excuse all cheesiness as I was feeling the need to be sentimental this morning

• My wonderful husband who loves me, who is truly always there for me, and is an extremely hard worker who lately has managed to be able to do way more than I could ever do. I’m proud of him.

• My family who loves me, specifically right now my mom, whom I’ve often been venting to lately.  She always does a great job of just listening, encouraging me, and letting me just vent instead of trying to solve my problems, and I really appreciate that!

• The fact that I am healthy, and have the physical and mental ability to workout and to be active.

• The fact that Erik is also completely healthy (minus having sinusitis for over a month that he’s just getting over, ha ;) He also doesn’t have time to work out right now, though he misses it, but some day will have time again and is definitely able-bodied to, that which I am thankful for.

• Hope. Hope that no matter what happens, God’s justice will prevail in our life and in the world.
  • I feel like my eyes have been more opened to the world of cancer/sickness more as this is the closest it has brushed up against my own life and truly affected it. I’ve only been through a tiny portion of what so many families have been through and are currently going through and I can’t imagine how hard some people have it.

• Prosperity. Simply because I live in America, I am rich and I really have no idea how good I really do have it simply because of the fact that I have food, shelter and clothes and I am able to easily pay all the bills.

• Grace. God’s constant grace and mercy. I truly am a flawed human being who is completely clueless. I’m so thankful for God’s grace upon my constant ignorance and prideful, selfish tendencies as I continue to sincerely-as-I-can-manage pray, “Lord Jesus, have mercy on me, a sinner.”

So there is my current list of things I’m thankful for!

And thank you to everyone who who has sent well wishes and prayers our way throughout all of this! : )  I’m also very thankful for this wonderful blogging community. Though I haven’t been interacting with you all as much I would like to, thank you so much for reading and caring!!

And to any new readers I may have picked up recently along the way that I’ve probably neglected by not responding to or not e-mailing back, thank for reading anyways!!

What are you thankful for today?

 

-Lesley